She should have begged.

I was thinking about the time my now ex-wife admitted to her cheating. She was crying crocodile tears over the phone. These were not tears for me but rather manipulative tears.

At the end of her cheating admission, she wanted me to know her cheating wasn’t the reason for her divorcing me. That statement was such a confusing thing at the time.

She should have begged.

That’s when my anger surprised me. It’s been over decade since this phone call. Yet I felt anger rise up inside of me.

How backward was that response of hers?!

This admission culminated after MONTHS of gaslighting me about the affair. In other words, I had endured months of ABUSE, and she wanted me me know that she wasn’t divorcing me over the Other Man! That’s rich.

She should have begged.

If she understood what she had done, she should have begged for mercy and forgiveness from me. That’s is how this ought to have gone.

But Cheaters don’t work that way. They are entitled, cruel individuals.

Yet I am grateful for the gift of anger as it alerted me to how things ought to have been even if they weren’t in the moment. Plus, I am grateful for the new life (and wife) I have now.